I had the best day of my life today, as I posted on facebook...
was reminded today of the best day and worst day of my life, which was the same day, I wrote about this girl on the old board after this happened, the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, now I remember her up close in the dark, that face, told my friends who were in from Vegas about her and how I dogged her because I didn't get her joke, taken aback that night, just a reaction, it was very convincing and I was deflated, and she liked me, how many strippers are up on that table face on, straight at me. 5 feet away just casual advertising around that platform by the bar giving me long steady looks, no swinging on the pole or anything dumb, mine only, all. fully. I broke her heart. went off crying and never came back out, everyone blamed me after I said what, like I needed to feel worse, friends said her joke was probably an act and I believed them but she didn't come out again. same way it was brought back to my memory now. maybe it wasn't an act, either way I was not cool. I beat myself to death over it like never before or since until consoled I'd have to wait 7, 8, 9 years for another chance which I knew I'd wait happily, I was excited, they told me so I was cool about waiting. greatest then, greatest now, I was thrown off. it was new to me. the cutest thing ever, damn, but I see it now. all. finally something in my life works out. I get my chance. I can say I'm sorry. never been more sorry. I can't go back and fix it, not like she's available either now. the one and only. the best ever in every way, haunted me forever. I was going to college and knew they don't just come like that often, at all. I knew there was a person inside there. my woman's all grown up now.
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